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Thursday, 11 December 2008

welcome back Jimmy D!

It's been a while and sorry for those who visit and those who are starting to visit.

Well, the semester is coming to an end for PCC and i look back at all the awkward and funny moments i've been through. So that means, i have an exciting story to share!

Well, it was after lunch and i was sitting in my math class behind some white girl. The teacher, as always, was unbelievably boring and i couldn't freaking stand it. I tried paying attention but i was falling asleep, i tried drawing and doodling but i was falling asleep, and i tried playing games on my cell phone but i was afraid of getting caught. So the whole time i was just sitting there dozing off into space and random ass thought. My eyes got pretty damn heavy and i guess i knocked out for a brief moment. My head leaned forward and it was getting pretty damn close to the white girl in front of me. I guess if you watched from a third person view, it would probably look like i was trying to smell her or something... yeah... pretty damn creepy BUT i wasn't! i was falling alseep. How do i know i was leaning forward as i knocked out? Well, because right before i woke up.... i headbutted her back! i know! freaking nuts! well she turned around looking extremely pissed got up and gathered her stuff and moved her seat to the front of the class. I was unaware of what happened until i realized i headbutted her from the feeling of my forehead. But seriously man, that's nuts! i headbutted that poor defenseless white girl but in the end i think it's pretty damn random and funny.

Good memory to look back on for the semester.

har har.

Friday, 07 November 2008

You live life to create a balance because when you're young the main things in life is a relationship, friends, family, money, and education
Relationship: A girlfriend/boyfriend or a life partner.
Friends: the kids you've grown up with and the people you will meet that impact your life.
Family: Your brothers and sisters as well as your mother and father who will love you no matter what (in some cases)
Money: A nice source of income to buy life's uneeded necessities
Education: (last for a reason because it's important but the least of anyone's worries when the rest applies) Your future in the making.

I was talking to a very good friend today and the stuff we were talking about made me realize about happenings in my past which i overlooked. We talked about the balance of these five matters in your life and when one offsets another there may be consequences involved. To your friends and families, it is understandable when friends, families, and education becomes more important than the other. For example, It's understandable to go to your brother's/sister's wedding than going to your friend's birthday party. It's understandable to go take that test that determines your future than to go kick it with your buddies. It's understandable to go see your friend in the hospital than your family reunion. Things can be excused in many scenarios but some are a bit over the top "Are you a damn idiot?" situations. It's uncool to ditch your brother's birthday to go play xbox with your friends. It's uncool to ditch a funeral for class (In my opinion it is). Well, these were some examples for you to come to an understanding of what i'm trying to say... which is what i'm going to say now... haha.

I was thinking about my first two relationships... my first two girlfriends... I gave these two girls all of my time and from these actions i left my friends behind. During this "high on love" bullshit, i left my friends in the shadows and out of my life. Thinking about it now, i sorta understand because when your "high on love" it's hard to seperate but the consequences of my actions were pretty bad. When these relationships crashed and burned, i went back to these friends of mine and resumed my life the way it was before i met these girls. These relationships were my first priority and my friends were my second. They knew it too and thinking about it now, i learned not to do such retarded things to them. I've been blessed with great friends who stuck with me and still took the crap i dished out at them. They continued to be my friend when i took them as second priority and they knew they were my rebound when things were going to crash and burn. I've put love above everything else in life. It was hard, i lived through bullshit drama moments and i went through emotional hell. I put my 100 percent whole into this and what did i end up with in the long run? haha, nothing. Don't put all your eggs in one basket... man because i don't know if i continued that shit to them... how long with i keep these friends? actually the question is, how long will they keep me?

well, if it made sense to you then yay on my part but if it didn't then... heh, truly sorry.

Monday, 27 October 2008

He drove up to her house and got out of the car and along the passenger side she got out of the car. He walked her to the front of her house and to the door.
He looked at her and said, "I'm sorry..."
She looked at him with a puzzled face, "What are you talking about?"
"I'm sorry that I'm nervous and shy.... it's just..." he responded as his face began to look down at the ground.
She smiled and said, "What are you talking about? I had a great time"
"No, it's not that I think i know why... It's because..." as he brought back up his head and began to sing.

"Now i'm speechless over the edge and breathless....

FUCK! i forgot the rest of the lyrics!"

"AWWW!, you're so cute!" She said with delight and gave him a kiss on the cheek.

And it was that kiss he told himself he wasn't gonna wash off until, without realizing, he took a shower the very next day.

Wednesday, 22 October 2008

It's times like these where I can't complain and where i can't help but smile.

Monday, 13 October 2008

It's been a while since my last post and it's not because i've been busy... well... actually yeah i have been busy.

I've been debating what i should be for halloween. The kids at work told me to be an old guy so i've been looking for those bald wigs and clothes that look like mr rogers. With these kids i'm still having a hard time establishing a disciplinarian front. i'm too damn soft on these kids. I'll try even harder this week if i'm given the chance to punish and discipline. i've been watching alot of my coworkers do it and it's been helpful. i wonder why i never watched them before. lol.

school has been queer. i failed my first logic test and god dammit that shit was freaking hard. the whole damn class failed the test! i got a C on my math test which i thought was pretty decent for a non study but he down graded my homework because i just copied it straight from the book. lol. I got a C on my US history class and freaking next friday, my group project stuff is due and three of my group members whom i will not name dropped the class. So it's just me and jeff in one group and we're first to present! we're screwed!